I honestly feel so deprived of energy and I am burdened with sadness and anxiety.
I am honestly so terrified for my interview. I will cry so hard and I can imagine how cruel they will be to me like they were to my sister and I didn’t even have an ill-intention. Just an idiotic lazy student. I did not want to claim other people’s work as my own.
I hate me. I feel like everyone hates me.
I hung out with my best friend today and we talked about shit that is so pointless. I kept having urges to talk about how I feel then I realised I dreaded even talking about it. I was just not in the mood to talk about feelings or how I’ve been doing because I just don’t want to. It’s too much to even say in real life, I do not know where to start.
I just keep eating and spending my feelings and it has done me no fucking good. I am so fucking fat. God, I am disgusting. I want to rip my entire body into pieces.
I just want to cry. I just want to die. I am just so fucking sick to death of feeling this way. Nothing is ever going to change and the thing is, it is all in my head.
I will never be able to escape my head.